please!!

ceh!! 
Sorry but its just not me!!
if i'm accepting u..
i Just betray myself..
In the end.. everyone will care for themselves right??
Uish!! this not what i want!! really !!
So i decided to leave him..
For real.. This time..
There is another reason ..
but guess i just keep it for myself!! 
So.. i really searching the right time for get over!!!
REALLY!! ITS full of pain.. n hurt!!
In the end.. i always start the fight..
N his friends sick of me... 
So his friends tell me to back off...
He will bring another girl..
such a pain!! 
do i deserve accept all this??
Do i??
So i give him.. a last massage..
Goodbye!! n hope he will conduct his life better..
the last massage just y??
from him.. 
but i just cant reply.. 
in my heart...
just one massage?? y??
just it??
ok!! i'm totally back off now!!
NO more conversation after that!! 
He delete me n block me from his fb...
n i'm deleting him from my ym!! 
Not really what i want.. 
but i have too!!!

"He taught me how to love, but not how to stop"