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Hey!! 


i miss my friends.. 


Gonna miss my family..


will miss old me.. 


prefer miss someone worth..


guess miss my grandpa n grandma..


remember to miss my nephew.. 


believe to miss my old life..


perhaps my miss will valuable..


hate miss someone that already gone.. 


for my sake, please miss my inner peace..


little bit more miss my home..


miss my comfortable bed..


Its all about missing something around me.. 

                     PINKY PROMISE <3 

                                                       
                         What u think about it??


                    I thinks its cool n kindda awesome..
                                                                                        TOTALLY.. 

                        See it in movie scene..


                            Drama scene..


         Its like u're making promise with CUTE way.. 
                                                                              

                     I guess i will give a shoot..

                                            
                 making pinky promise with my BEST FRIENDS...
                               
                          BEST BUDDY..
                                
                          BEST BESTIE..
                                                    
                    BEST BOYFRIENDS... NO WAY!!

                                                
                  WOW!! its cute indeed give me an idea..

                                                     
                      like a little things to try...

My Paranoid: hey

My Paranoid: hey: "Read this n u will know more about who i'm... he3 thanks

hey

This is totally my blog...
Hehe...
Obviously huh??
I just wanna say that.......

Dear All my friends,

The real purpose that i share my story is because...

I really wanna let him go..

Its totally not cursing him..

Or another source to make him come back..

Indeed i believe that his will not find this blog..

Until his last breath.. 

The Truth is the hardest thing for us..

and there is no turning back for me..

Its really hard to move on so...

I decided and promised to myself that..

Even his come back with whatever reason.. 

Its still No!!! 

I love him not because money.. Appearance.. 

But just him..

No matter how cruel he treat me.. 

Honestly i'm proud to myself...

At least i got a lesson n experience to see this world more wider than i thought...

So even if he is reading my blog...

I'm totally not angry or cursing u..

Just treat everyone better if u want all people treat u better..

In this world!!

Whats come around goes around..

Let gone by gone..

U're my first love n nothing gonna change it..

Once u touch my heart..

Forever u will be there... 

p/s: I'm Totally move on...

Done!!

My love story totally done now!! (>.<!!)
Thanks for support!! 
tribute to him.. <3 he3...
I'm totally satisfy with myself now.. 
TOTALLY!! 

"Love is like a friendship caught on fire: In the beginning a flame, very pretty, often hot and fierce, but still only light and flickering. As love grows older, our hearts mature and our love becomes as coals, deep-burning and unquenchable."
--Bruce Lee

Move on 2

This time is the hardest part for me...
Move on for second time.. 
Ceh!! its really hurt n full of pain..
Really .. 


u know.. i can't cry..
Dunno why??
like usual time...
My tears love to fall either in sleep or not..
Too over dose frustrated...
SERIOUSLY!!! 


i'm wasting my time..
reading article in Google..
its about 50 articles..
Which is about How to move on...
oh!! my even in my dream.. 

i never thought that i can read so many articles about one thing...


indeed..
its harder because we are not break up with good way...
He just replay nothing..
There is something that i really regret about... 
Then..
Listen to move on song,
Sad song,
Spirit song,
anything that make me alive..


i really dont eat proper for one week..
No appetite at all.. 
Keep asking people opinion..
Shame on me..
Keep listening to advice.. =.="
imagine people opinion..


My emotional!!! 
Ceh!! not Stable at all..
Pity to my siblings...
Cant sleep tight too.. 
Watch kpop mv all over repeating...
like dead people huh!! =.=" 
i really feel worst !! Totally worst..
Lastly i paste in my sticker note in my lapy... 

"It's a Shame For You Not to Get Over Ex When These People Do It So Easily"

Then, after a week.. 
I can behave myself back.. 
W0a!! its so tiring.. 
Use all my energy ...


But i'm totally back off..
Deleting his picture..
Phone number...
indeed all his sweet massage.... 
i'm totally OVER it...  =.="

"You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly."

Reason

After that..
I just think back!!
All of it..
Calmly..
Really frustrated with..
Unreasonable break up.. 


We have a lot of differences...


Too far away...


Both of us egoist..


Like to be in safe place..

Keep secret by ourself ...

Both not into long relationship...


Still blur about future..


Donno to communicate.. 


He have many experience in love..


While me... Zero !! coz love rejecting people...
In my mind.. i just need someone who i'm comfortable with...


I always need his attention...


He cant accept.. 
I'm anti-smoking..


He say: I'm demanding n always try to make him jealous..


When i'm telling something..
His not into my story..
The truth.. Not supportive at all..

I'm totally fake when i say i can accept his past!!

3 ex-lover and 18 crushes ( he said those girl just like whisper)

His not really into them..

He never consider my feelings..


Actually he decide everything..


Too many hope our relationship.. 


He just changed after few weeks..


Totally make me feel alone..


I have many things to say but..
I donno how to express my feelings.. 
He kindda hurt with my secret keeper attitude!!


He is Handsome n i'm just ordinary girl..
indeed i'm short n not match my age..


Both of us.. born in December..

Sometimes.. i always say that it will be better if we are not far apart...


Dream of somethings that kindda hard to be fulfill...

 "Love is a dream that comes alive when we meet."