Confuse again

Gee~~ 
My love really does not last longer...
For real.. Erm..
Now i'm having problem.. 
I'm confuse with myself..
Either really i love him??
or after all this i just wanna friends??
or just i'm pity to him..
So i decide to ask my friends opinion..
For my goodness..
i really do that!!

I just need time.. 
So.. 
 i tell lie once again..
i tell him that ..
i now working.. 
Oh!! Curses!! really...
All in all, 
They say that i have to discuss this matter to him..
so i give a call.. 
I tell him all i feel..
he let me decide.. 
uish!! lol..
I cant sleep think about it.. 
But he seems cant get it..
He really sound not satisfy with my words...
Oh!! i really disappointed...  
But what can i do...
Thats what i feel... can he be able to understand me??

 "Sometimes your nearness takes my breath away; and all the things I want to say can find no voice. Then, in silence, I can only hope my eyes will speak my heart."
--Robert Sexton